There are times when even the most crowded of spaces cannot offer a sense of peace, and solitude is lost in translation - the only feeling, (behind all the masks), is that of emptiness.
Why?
How is it that all the external smiles that impose on your sudden thought cannot bring fulfilment to your heart? How is it that nobody can see past the façade you apply with effort in order to cover the frown that hides beneath the skin? How is it that the fresh air that surrounds your being cannot fill the lungs with the breath needed to stop the incessant sighs?
The feeling is awkward. It does not cease to exist and it is discomforting.
If I was to offer an answer that explains this imbalance, I would have to get personal, and it would mean that I would need to generalize the primal effects that are instilled in us by experience. (And if I was able to offer a piece of sense, my mind would not be requiring the answer to the question stemmed by this intriguing empty effect). Therefore, look within next time this feeling comes and ask yourself a series of questions:
Do you feel this way because you feel something has been taken away from you?
Do you feel this way because you're unhappy with the location of your meeting?
Do you feel this way because you're unhappy with the crowd that keeps your company?
Do you feel this way because of a need to make a connection with the right personalities?
Do you feel this way because you're unhappy with yourself?
Where does this feeling of emptiness stem from???
So many questions could be equated to help determine the source of this lament... But when one question begins, another one follows, and at times these just build up and are jumbled upon a mountain of scribbles that lose their sense.
Perhaps the solution lies not in asking questions but in looking within yourself because only you will understand the reasons behind your sudden sense of emptiness...
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